Hello Hello... I am at Mcdonalds with a bunch of little cousins screaming and Bridger chasing them. Kate is with her daddy at home. While I have a WHOLE table to myself, with a Dr Pepper on one side, French Fries and a Cheese Burger with no mustard, pickle on the other, and in front of me, my mini laptop! This last hour has been heaven, I have blogged stalked people, checked FB, checked Email, texted a few friends and I am loving it. I might never go back home! I feel a little guilty being so obliviously happy while Jed is probably entertaining the baby this whole time. Meh...this is like the second time EVER she's not on my hip or hanging off my chi chitas (oh I SAID IT!) =) Guilt is now gone.
But while blog stalking, I read this wonderful blog about a list of things she would do today. It was such a cute list and it made me realize how big of a list I have, and how some of the things on the list totally matter and how some don't. The more I'm realizing that life is to short....kids grow up to fast, and life goes full speed after you turn 21. (Before then I swear time was standing still!) So inspired by her blog, I will write my list....
I will.....
not yell....(again) today....
I will make dinner this week
I will take more pictues
I will do laundry
I will get a drink with a friend today
I will tell my husband I think he's the most sexiest man alive...its the truth!
I will NOT berate myself for the 5 million things I didn't get done today because its ok!
I will play the Wii with Bridger
I will listen to Justin Beiber songs with Jocelyn....( when did she learn about this boy!?)
I will nurse my baby
I will play with my sweet Kate and take a million pictures of her sweet little face
I will also take pictures of my other children
I will take a shower today...maybe.
Cat
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Thursday, December 27, 2012
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Pressure is on!! *updated*
August 8th, 2010
Alright, so I'm having a hard time with my blogging, cleaning, laundry, kids...everything! I am feeling the pressure of losing the weight, having the house perfect, playing with the kids, having meals ready, going to church, School starting in 2 weeks.. ect. So much pressure to already have everything in control and I don't like it...I can cry at ANY minute of the day.
I don't know how other people DO IT but I feel like I'm not doing it, and I know it takes time, but I feel like the time has run out, and I don't have that excuse of "I just had a baby". Jed's work is over whelming, that he can't help out as much, even though he does help out more than other husbands that actually go to work because he works from home. I have to pump 2-3 times a night, plus then bottle fed Kate. Then the kids wake up so early (8-9) I know...thats late, but its so early to us because we've been up all night, that we just throw cereal at them and let them watch TV or play the Wii. ugh.....And the sleep deprivation ...I can seriously sleep at ANY minute of the day. I
I know this will pass, but today I am feeling a lot of pressure, and since this is MY blog,I will WHINE.....But on a GOOD note, I love holding little Kate in my arms. She SO tiny!! and she's getting so chunky! I love it!! She's growing good. The kids LOVE her to death, and she is the favorite right now! Everyone loves Kate. LOL.
Also I am SO in love with my husband, even though he works so much, he is killing himself by helping me with the baby, and kids, and then up all night working to get through deadlines. He shows me all the time that he loves me. I don't know how I got so lucky to get him. =)
Cat
Alright, so I'm having a hard time with my blogging, cleaning, laundry, kids...everything! I am feeling the pressure of losing the weight, having the house perfect, playing with the kids, having meals ready, going to church, School starting in 2 weeks.. ect. So much pressure to already have everything in control and I don't like it...I can cry at ANY minute of the day.
I don't know how other people DO IT but I feel like I'm not doing it, and I know it takes time, but I feel like the time has run out, and I don't have that excuse of "I just had a baby". Jed's work is over whelming, that he can't help out as much, even though he does help out more than other husbands that actually go to work because he works from home. I have to pump 2-3 times a night, plus then bottle fed Kate. Then the kids wake up so early (8-9) I know...thats late, but its so early to us because we've been up all night, that we just throw cereal at them and let them watch TV or play the Wii. ugh.....And the sleep deprivation ...I can seriously sleep at ANY minute of the day. I
I know this will pass, but today I am feeling a lot of pressure, and since this is MY blog,I will WHINE.....But on a GOOD note, I love holding little Kate in my arms. She SO tiny!! and she's getting so chunky! I love it!! She's growing good. The kids LOVE her to death, and she is the favorite right now! Everyone loves Kate. LOL.
Also I am SO in love with my husband, even though he works so much, he is killing himself by helping me with the baby, and kids, and then up all night working to get through deadlines. He shows me all the time that he loves me. I don't know how I got so lucky to get him. =)
Cat
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Kate - 15 Days *Updated*
So its been 15 days! Its been so hard, but so rewarding as well. She is so small, little, fragile, I love her so much. She has one of the most perfect newborn faces I have seen! She reminds me a lot of Jocelyn when she was born with a little bit of Bridger, and then Jed and I in between. =)
We are still struggling with the nursing, today we have a dr. appointment and I will ask him about her latching. She is having problems with the bottle as well, so I wonder if it has something to do with her tounge. Bridger had to get the underneath part snipped so that he would be able to suck better.
Other than that she is such a good baby! She doesn't have any colics, wakes up every 3-4 hours to eat, and shes a really content baby. She LOVES taking baths, she loves them !! She was falling asleep yesterday in her little bath. Bridger and Jocelyn love to watch her take baths and think its so funny that a newborn is taking a "Bubble Bath".
Bridger and Jocelyn have been amazing! They love her so much and are so protective of her. They have been so helpful and just simply amazing the last 2 weeks.
Can't believe we are a family of 5 now!! We are loving it...
Cat
We are still struggling with the nursing, today we have a dr. appointment and I will ask him about her latching. She is having problems with the bottle as well, so I wonder if it has something to do with her tounge. Bridger had to get the underneath part snipped so that he would be able to suck better.
Other than that she is such a good baby! She doesn't have any colics, wakes up every 3-4 hours to eat, and shes a really content baby. She LOVES taking baths, she loves them !! She was falling asleep yesterday in her little bath. Bridger and Jocelyn love to watch her take baths and think its so funny that a newborn is taking a "Bubble Bath".
Bridger and Jocelyn have been amazing! They love her so much and are so protective of her. They have been so helpful and just simply amazing the last 2 weeks.
Can't believe we are a family of 5 now!! We are loving it...
Cat
Monday, July 26, 2010
Today------Day 12......Hell Week
Ok, so in football terms there is a week called "Hells Week" where the Freshmen players are put to the test, they are made to do these extreme things in order to get into the team. So initiation start! I asked my boyfriend a football player at the time, does that make you angry? He said no, because when he became a senior he would be able to do it to all the freshmen. =)
I think that is what the first 10 days of a newborns life is...Initiation week. Hell Week. Our parents way of getting back at us, telling us they want grandkids...AH!! They are now the seniors and we are the freshmen, welcome to the week of dome. Getting up at odd hours of the night, eating, changing, burping, swaying, jumping, cooing, nursing, warming, bathing, cleaning, pumping, and doing it all on a few hours of sleep.
BUT I think I made the team!! She is now 12 days old, alive and healthy, and it seems like there is light at the end of the tunnel. We are pumping and bottle feeding her at night, and then trying to nurse during the day, its still a struggle but today she latched on after just at BIT of struggling. We are learning!!!
But on the 12th day ...I now have a COLD. YES arrrrrrhhhhh I have a stuffy nose, sore throat, body ache and a headache. ugh. I am trying not to breath on little Kate, but its so hard. We might just bottle feed these next few days and then go back to try nursing. I just don't want a sick baby!! Now that will be a sad day.
Yesterday we went for a walk around the block, and it was kind of nice to get out of the house, but I am for sure not ready to hit reality. I can't even think about going somewhere with all three kids, nursing in public..YEAH RIGHT?!?! and controlling Bridger and Jocelyn. I know this will pass, but it hasn't passed YET.
But just to leave on a good note, man I love that little thing....she is the most sweetest Baby!!! Her adorable chubby face just smiles ALL the time. The kids adore her, and she already has Jed wrapped around her finger, ...and ME TOO. We are so incredibly lucky to have her in our family.
Utnil next time
cat
I think that is what the first 10 days of a newborns life is...Initiation week. Hell Week. Our parents way of getting back at us, telling us they want grandkids...AH!! They are now the seniors and we are the freshmen, welcome to the week of dome. Getting up at odd hours of the night, eating, changing, burping, swaying, jumping, cooing, nursing, warming, bathing, cleaning, pumping, and doing it all on a few hours of sleep.
BUT I think I made the team!! She is now 12 days old, alive and healthy, and it seems like there is light at the end of the tunnel. We are pumping and bottle feeding her at night, and then trying to nurse during the day, its still a struggle but today she latched on after just at BIT of struggling. We are learning!!!
But on the 12th day ...I now have a COLD. YES arrrrrrhhhhh I have a stuffy nose, sore throat, body ache and a headache. ugh. I am trying not to breath on little Kate, but its so hard. We might just bottle feed these next few days and then go back to try nursing. I just don't want a sick baby!! Now that will be a sad day.
Yesterday we went for a walk around the block, and it was kind of nice to get out of the house, but I am for sure not ready to hit reality. I can't even think about going somewhere with all three kids, nursing in public..YEAH RIGHT?!?! and controlling Bridger and Jocelyn. I know this will pass, but it hasn't passed YET.
But just to leave on a good note, man I love that little thing....she is the most sweetest Baby!!! Her adorable chubby face just smiles ALL the time. The kids adore her, and she already has Jed wrapped around her finger, ...and ME TOO. We are so incredibly lucky to have her in our family.
Utnil next time
cat
Monday, July 19, 2010
No sleep means ENGERY!! Wait a minute!?!? KEEP
OK! So I haven't slept for days, and I woke up today at 3:00am with Kate, and then at 6:00am and then I had to wake up at nine with my OTHER kids.
But I woke up with ENERGY! I got up, cleaned the kitchen did some laundry, nursed Kate, changed her, got the kids in clothes, got lunch ready, eaten, cleaned up....It was good. THEN I sat down and I felt the drain. I then took a little nap while the kids watched some TV.
I am trying really hard to update everyday, but its not working out very well. Just an update so that I remember what I am going through, I am sooo engorged, I think this is now women with breast implants feel after surgery. So painful, nursing isn't going very well. She latches on, then latches off. She takes a bottle very well though, we are TRYING very hard to give her a Binki but she isn't really liking that either.
My ligament pain is still there, BUT its way better than it was before. Mostly the left hip , pelvic area is still sore. The first few days I still couldn't sleep on my side without a million pillows because my hips were so incredibly bad.
Cat
But I woke up with ENERGY! I got up, cleaned the kitchen did some laundry, nursed Kate, changed her, got the kids in clothes, got lunch ready, eaten, cleaned up....It was good. THEN I sat down and I felt the drain. I then took a little nap while the kids watched some TV.
I am trying really hard to update everyday, but its not working out very well. Just an update so that I remember what I am going through, I am sooo engorged, I think this is now women with breast implants feel after surgery. So painful, nursing isn't going very well. She latches on, then latches off. She takes a bottle very well though, we are TRYING very hard to give her a Binki but she isn't really liking that either.
My ligament pain is still there, BUT its way better than it was before. Mostly the left hip , pelvic area is still sore. The first few days I still couldn't sleep on my side without a million pillows because my hips were so incredibly bad.
Cat
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