McDonald Bliss *Updated*

Hello Hello... I am at Mcdonalds with a bunch of little cousins screaming and Bridger chasing them. Kate is with her daddy at home. While I have a WHOLE table to myself, with a Dr Pepper on one side, French Fries and a Cheese Burger with no mustard, pickle on the other, and in front of me, my mini laptop! This last hour has been heaven, I have blogged stalked people, checked FB, checked Email, texted a few friends and I am loving it. I might never go back home! I feel a little guilty being so obliviously happy while Jed is probably entertaining the baby this whole time. Meh...this is like the second time EVER she's not on my hip or hanging off my chi chitas (oh I SAID IT!)  =) Guilt is now gone.

But while blog stalking, I read this wonderful blog about a list of things she would do today. It was such a cute list and it made me realize how big of a list I have, and how some of the things on the list totally matter and how some don't. The more I'm realizing that life is to short....kids grow up to fast, and life goes full speed after you turn 21. (Before then I swear time was standing still!) So inspired by her blog, I will write my list....

I will.....

not yell....(again) today....

I will make dinner this week
I will take more pictues
I will do laundry
I will get a drink with a friend today
I will tell my husband I think he's the most sexiest man alive...its the truth!
I will NOT berate myself for the 5 million things I didn't get done today because its ok!
I will play the Wii with Bridger
I will listen to Justin Beiber songs with Jocelyn....( when did she learn about this boy!?)
I will nurse my baby
I will play with my sweet Kate and take a million pictures of her sweet little face
I will also take pictures of my other children
I will take a shower today...maybe.

Cat

Katelyn is a MONTH OLD!! *Updated*

Katelyn is fill out SOO much. She is so chunky and growing so fast, her Newborn clothes are not fitting her anymore. LOL she's growing so much! She's still so tiny and little though, and she's starting to focus on my face and voice.

She is so smart for being such a tiny baby! What other baby "talks" at one month? Seriously shes always using her voice! Its so funny, if not using her voice she makes these little "Horsey" noises that are SO cute! I have to record them and put them up.


Cat

Pressure is on!! *updated*

August 8th, 2010

Alright, so I'm having a hard time with my blogging, cleaning, laundry, kids...everything! I am feeling the pressure of losing the weight, having the house perfect, playing with the kids, having meals ready, going to church, School starting in 2 weeks.. ect. So much pressure to already have everything in control and I don't like it...I can cry at ANY minute of the day.

I don't know how other people DO IT but I feel like I'm not doing it, and I know it takes time, but I feel like the time has run out, and I don't have that excuse of "I just had a baby". Jed's work is over whelming, that he can't help out as much, even though he does help out more than other husbands that actually go to work because he works from home. I have to pump 2-3 times a night, plus then bottle fed Kate. Then the kids wake up so early (8-9) I know...thats late, but its so early to us because we've been up all night, that we just throw cereal at them and let them watch TV or play the Wii. ugh.....And the sleep deprivation  ...I can seriously sleep at ANY minute of the day. I

I know this will pass, but today I am feeling a lot of pressure, and since this is MY blog,I will WHINE.....But on a GOOD note, I love holding little Kate in my arms. She SO tiny!! and she's getting so chunky! I love it!! She's growing good. The kids LOVE her to death, and she is the favorite right now! Everyone loves Kate. LOL.

Also I am SO in love with my husband, even though he works so much, he is killing himself by helping me with the baby, and kids, and then up all night working to get through deadlines. He shows me all the time that he loves me. I don't know how I got so lucky to get him. =)

Cat

Kate - 15 Days *Updated*

So its been 15 days! Its been so hard, but so rewarding as well. She is so small, little, fragile, I love her so much. She has one of the most perfect newborn faces I have seen! She reminds me a lot of Jocelyn when she was born with a little bit of Bridger, and then Jed and I in between. =)

We are still struggling with the nursing, today we have a dr. appointment and I will ask him about her latching. She is having problems with the bottle as well, so I wonder if it has something to do with her tounge. Bridger had to get the underneath part snipped so that he would be able to suck better.

Other than that she is such a good baby! She doesn't have any colics, wakes up every 3-4 hours to eat, and shes a really content baby. She LOVES taking baths, she loves them !! She was falling asleep yesterday in her little bath. Bridger and Jocelyn love to watch her take baths and think its so funny that a newborn is taking a "Bubble Bath".

Bridger and Jocelyn have been amazing! They love her so much and are so protective of her. They have been so helpful and just simply amazing the last 2 weeks.

Can't believe we are a family of 5 now!! We are loving it...

Cat

Today------Day 12......Hell Week

Ok, so in football terms there is a week called "Hells Week" where the Freshmen players  are put to the test, they are made to do these extreme things in order to get into the team. So initiation start! I asked my boyfriend a football player at the time, does that make you angry? He said no, because when he became a senior he would be able to do it to all the freshmen. =)

 I think that is what the first 10 days of a newborns life is...Initiation week. Hell Week. Our parents way of getting back at us, telling us they want grandkids...AH!! They are now the seniors and we are the freshmen, welcome to the week of dome. Getting up at odd hours of the night, eating, changing, burping, swaying, jumping, cooing, nursing, warming, bathing, cleaning, pumping, and doing it all on a few hours of sleep.

BUT I think I made the team!!  She is now 12 days old, alive and healthy, and it seems like there is light at the end of the tunnel. We are pumping and bottle feeding her at night, and then trying to nurse during the day, its still a struggle but today she latched on after just at BIT of struggling. We are learning!!!

But on the 12th day ...I now have a COLD. YES arrrrrrhhhhh I have a stuffy nose, sore throat, body ache and a headache. ugh. I am trying not to breath on little Kate, but its so hard. We might just bottle feed these next few days and then go back to try nursing. I just don't want a sick baby!! Now that will be a sad day.

Yesterday we went for a walk around the block, and it was kind of nice to get out of the house, but I am for sure not ready to hit reality. I can't even think about going somewhere with all three kids, nursing in public..YEAH RIGHT?!?! and controlling Bridger and Jocelyn. I know this will pass, but it hasn't passed YET.

But just to leave on a good note, man I love that little thing....she is the most sweetest Baby!!! Her adorable chubby face just smiles ALL the time. The kids adore her, and she already has Jed wrapped around her finger, ...and ME TOO. We are so incredibly lucky to have her in our family.

Utnil next time

cat

Baby Kate is 5 days old

So last night my sweet girl woke up at 3:00am. I nursed her thinking she would go back to sleep. She didn't. she was wide awake...her beautiful big eyes looking around, lookign at me and smiling...she is a smiler!!

So I woke up with her and talked to my sweet girl. We had a great time talking and gooing at each other, until she wanted to nurse. We are having a really hard time nursing, and this is killing me. With my other babies, I could nurse in bed and stay half way asleep while they nursed. But we have to get UP and struggle a bit with the whole nursing thing. But 4:30am I was tired, this little event lasted until 6:30 when she finally latched on, had a diaper change 3 times, and latched on again.

For some reason I don't remember these first few days!! I think I blocked it out with my other 2!! ....ahh...Sorry so short, just wanted to remember what it was like after a newborn is BORN!!! ahhhhhhh

Cat

No sleep means ENGERY!! Wait a minute!?!? KEEP

OK! So I haven't slept for days, and I woke up today at 3:00am with Kate, and then at 6:00am and then I had to wake up at nine with my OTHER kids.

But I woke up with ENERGY! I got up, cleaned the kitchen did some laundry, nursed Kate, changed her, got the kids in clothes, got lunch ready, eaten, cleaned up....It was good. THEN I sat down and I felt the drain. I then took a little nap while the kids watched some TV.

I am trying really hard to update everyday, but its not working out very well. Just an update so that I remember what I am going through, I am sooo engorged, I think this is now women with breast implants feel after surgery. So painful, nursing isn't going very well. She latches on, then latches off. She takes a bottle very well though, we are TRYING very hard to give her a Binki but she isn't really liking that either.

My ligament pain is still there, BUT its way better than it was before. Mostly the left hip , pelvic area is still sore. The first few days I still couldn't sleep on my side without a million pillows because my hips were so incredibly bad.

Cat

July 14th......Katelyn is Born *Updated*

I woke up at 4:30 JUST waiting......until 6:00. It was nice to go to the hospital and know that they wouldn't send me back and that we were having our baby today!!

This is the before pictures! So that I can see how big I actually was and how kind everyone that told me I was so small was.

haha....I was huge! Baby Kate was ready to COME OUT!!

                                              This is right before I got into my fancy Hospital Gown.

Then we get the IV in, and they started me on Pitocin. The contractions started up very quickly and I started feeling them fast! I waited until around 11:00 to get my epidural in, before they up'ed my dose of pitocin and the contractions really started hurting!!

My Grandma came at 8:00am to come help me deliver Baby Kate!! (She is actually named after my grandma, Katelyn Ana Marie Glazner) I love my grandma she's been there at EVERY single birth of mine. I love it!!

So I was at a 2+ and I was so scared of the epidural because they missed 3 times with Bridger and I was so nervous that they were going to miss this time as well. So I waited fora bit before I got it done. The Epidcural guy was named RICK and he was awesome, gave me 2 numbing shots to make sure I didn't feel the epidural needle and I was set.

But I didn't feel my legs go completley numb like I did with Bridger. I didn't feel the contractions anymore and thought it would kick in later. THEN the dr came in to break my water at two, when he did that, I totally felt him break my water and the water gushing out. I said..."If I feel that, won't I feel the birth?" They told me they wanted me to feel the "Pressure" of the baby. But I wouldn't feel any pain.  I was like...Ok. One thing I did feel was I got ITCHY!! Which is a common side effect of the epidural. Which never has happened with my other two.

 Ok...so before I go further, another thing about this pregnancy was that I got so swollen!! My feet were so swollen the last 3 months of this pregnancy, I couldn't even wear my wedding ring! UGH...so after they put in my epidural, my feet swelled up like they never did before. Jed HAD to take pictures of them. So here they are...uhhhhhhh

LOOK at that!?!? At least I had my glitter toes...=)

After he broke my water  I started to dilate a LOT faster, at 2:00pm I was still only about a 3. VERY slow at dilating. But then around 5:00 I started to feel Pressure, with like an ache to it. I told the nurse I wanted more drugs because I didn't want to feel that. It started to really hurt, and my legs were less numb then before. That got me more worried. So the anesthesiologist came in and gave me more drugs but again told me that I would still feel pressure, this was to take the edge off. I was like..ok..but I shouldn't feel the birth. She said.." its supposed to feel like you have to go to the bathroom, but you won't have any pain with it". Again I was like, ok. I never felt that before so....

So around 6:00 they came in and checked me again, told me I was at a 7!! I was going FULL SPEED, and the Dr said before 7:00pm I would probably deliver her. I was so excited, time to call in my reinforcements. Also for this birth I decided I wanted a professional to come and take pictures of it. Not national geographic or anything, but some very tasteful pictures of the whole birth. So I called my photographer along with my aunt, and Mom.

I was excited, but I was getting way more anxious because the "Pressure" was totally there and it was NOT comfortable. The pain went away but the feeling of having to go to the bathroom and NOT be able to was miserable. Every 2 minutes I would get the urge to have to go to the bathroom and at the same time TRY and hold it. Because I didn't know if I had to or not!! She assured me that it was the baby and that I didn't have to really go. It was awful, and then I started feeling pain with the pressure, at a quarter to 7:00 they told me I was at a 10 and ready to push. I was so nervous, and feeling the pain with the pressure!

At 6:50 I started to push, and just like they said I started pushing, and then I felt this HUGE pain of fire and pulling and stretching like I've never felt before!! I started screaming it hurt so bad!! After six pushes she was OUT!! Sure enough the nurse was right I didn't go to the bathroom, which is such a relief!! I was so worried about that!!

After she came out, they put her on my tummy and she was SO beautiful!! She was so chubby!!! I thought for sure she was going to be this 8 pound baby, but she was this TINY seven pounds EVEN baby!! 19 inches long. Awww...she sure felt a LOT bigger than that. lol.

I had ONE tiny stitch and the I was telling the dr that I totally felt that, and it was burning! He said, " oh wow..you felt that? I think the epidural might of worn off, you just had your touch of natural birth ". UGHHHH I'm so sorry but I do not know WHY someone would want to go Natural!! That was awful!!! But at least I didn't feel the contractions the whole time, only the last 2 hours were bad.

While she got evaluated and check out, I got my one stitch, and was shaking like crazy!! He told me that some placenta was still inside and that he was going to give me some meds to help me get it out, and fight infection. About 45 minutes after I gave birth, they had me WALK to the bathroom, pee and get in a wheel chair. I was so surprised at how fast they had me do things! I was in so much pain!! I hurt so badly down in that area along with the cramping. UGH!!!! I was asking for pain meds as soon as they put me into my recovery room.

Finally after I had my pain meds, I felt a TINY bit better, I was still in so much pain. I was so uncomfortable. But the pain meds started kicking in and took the edge off. My family came to visit and the photographer took pictures of the kids with their new baby sister. Then with my grandma, uncle, aunt, brother, sister inlaw. I can't wait to see the pictures!

Then they went and bathed Katelyn and she came back with 2 pink bows...she looked SO CUTE!! I loved her so much!!

Then ......we start the first night with our Katelyn......The story continues!!

The day before Induction date....*update*

So I have to write a quick post, because I am wanting to remember how I feel!! I am actually feeling nervous. I've never been induced before and I'm just nervous about it!!

So we decided to do it! I'm done, Jed's done...I've been having contractions for WEEKS!! Come out baby girl COME OUT! As Bridger would say:


"Baby takin to long!:" ...I agree buddy!

We went to celebrate Kenny's birthday, and went to watch Despicable Me, that was awesome. So we took the kids to grandma's house, and to Abulitia's house! Bridger is staying with my mom and Jocelyn is going to stay with my grandma, and her cousin Kaia!

Jed and I are now left alone to pack and get things done for tomorrow!! Then we packed until 2:00 =)

Cat